I used to wonder about it.
What it would be like to have God tell me something? Would it be audible? I had felt impressed to do certain things, but I wouldn’t have said I felt like God spoke to me. I’d received signs that made guidance clear, but that’s different.
Even now that I know what it is like, I don’t know how to explain it.
It was like I heard the words, but inside my head, not through my ears. Yet there was actual conversation. It wasn’t just thoughts or imagined conversation, either.
It was the day after things ended with Alyssa, several hours before my first long walk with Mrs. Norseman. I was praying, and I remember I was standing at a urinal.
“God, I’m sure not having any luck finding a wife. I just had another birthday, and here I am again with no prospects. I’ve been trying, Lord. I’m just getting tired.”
And that’s when it happened. God asked “Are you willing to let me pick a wife for you?”
“Yes, Lord. I’m tired of looking.”
“Even if I pick [Mrs. Norseman] for you?”
“God, you know I don’t find her physically attractive. She’s overweight, and all the extra weight is on her butt. And I know nothing about her other than that my parents seem to like her.”
“So are you willing to let me pick a wife for you?”
“Ok, you win. If you want me to marry her, I will. But if I’m supposed to “be fruitful and multiply” you’re going to have to either help her lose some weight, or change what I’m attracted to, or both.
As I’ve written before, Mrs. Norseman did lose some significant weight–and as I’ve also previously written, she is now pregnant with my child.
That’s the only time I’ve ever heard the Voice.
When I first looked at the house I recently bought, I had been praying often about finding a place to live. I laughed when I saw the rock in front of the house, already engraved with my (not at all common) family name. The folks who sold to us said we were the fist people they had met with the same last name in 16 years of living in the area. It was a sign, plain as day, but there was no Voice.
When I got my current job, the way everything fell into place so easily was another sign, but again it was without The Voice.
I have no idea if I will ever hear it again.
There are many things on which God leaves the decision to us. In these cases we should pray for wisdom, and make choices within the moral framework of Biblical guidance.
There are other times that God indicates the path He wishes us to take via signs. In these cases, we ought to follow those signs at the crossroads they appear, and if there are no further signs further along, default back to praying for wisdom, and making choices within the moral framework of Biblical guidance.
Rarely, God will speak to us and tell us what he wishes us to do. These are the cases in which He asks the most from us, the hardest things. If you doubt that, peruse the Biblical stories in which God speaks.
Are you ready to surrender when God asks hard things of you?
As ready as Abraham was?
I hope so.
And when you have done what The Voice commands, look for signs to guide your path further. Where there are no signs, pray for wisdom, and make choices within the moral framework of Biblical guidance.